My mother has been thinking of leaving. She’s said this before in fits of frustration, but as next month marks the beginning of our SIXTH year in removal proceedings, she’s running on empty fumes. She’s busted her ass here for over 15 years and has only received mounting debt and tired bones in return.
I never expected this to last this long, to be a long-term member of the deportation veterans club. It’s a limbo within a limbo - you’re undocumented while being suspended in this halfway-place of neither here nor there. I’m not an END case, don’t have a final order of removal, but I also don’t have the full “comfort” of being in the anonymity of the shadows, because the system knows I exist.
We’re running out of options to stall proceedings any longer, and things are at the point where they will soon either go really well or crash and burn, leaving voluntary departure as the only option. I like how voluntary departure sounds so cute and warm and fuzzy, when in reality, it’s anything but voluntary.
The past three days have been reconciling the fact that her happiness is more important than supposedly “giving up.” I know I would stay here regardless, but she just turned 50 and she’s tired. She’s simply tired. I’ll continue to hope that magic fairy dust will sprinkle soon & she & my sister will find an avenue to adjust out of proceedings (I’ve aged out, so no adjusting for me). But I’m also starting to steel myself that next year might be a year of goodbye.
I haven’t seen my dad in 9 years because he grew tired of waiting. I’d hate to have to watch the only ships I have left sail away.
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- noface-nameless said:That is simply ridiculous. The government cannot fiddle with people’s lives like that. It’s unacceptable. I am so sorry for what you are going through. I cannot even imagine being in your place. Stay strong as you are, we will get through it together
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